TO SEE INTO CLOSED CIRCLE BELIEF BEHAVIOR RECURRENCE OF SHADOWS ON INNER CAVE WALLS

BRAVE...NOT THINKING ABOUT THE DANGERS. JUST THINKING ABOUT WHAT YOU MUST DO...LOIS LOWRY
PAIN, GRIEF, GUILT... MEMORIES OF FORMATIVE BEHAVIORS OF IMPOSITION ORDER THAT SPLIT ONE OFF... THE PATTERNS OF INHIBITION CONSTRUCTIONS THAT EXHAUST...

SO MUCH ENERGY IS IN MAINTENANCE OF BARRIERS AGAINST VANITY FEAR EXPOSURE...IMAGE-MAKING AND DECEPTIONS...

TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE...TRUTH OF URGENCY GREATER THAN MANIPULATIONS OF WANTING TO BE WANTED...THE FALSENESS OF STRATEGIES OF COMPENSATORY ACTIONS OF MIMESIS...IMITATIONS AND BEING AS EXPECTANCY INSTEAD OF HEART ...

THE DEEP SEATED SEEKING THE DEEPLY FAMILIAR...THE GETTING STRONGER SEEKING THE NEW VERSIONS OF OLD BATTLES...




DEEP-SEATEDNESS...THE GUT-BUTT-HUNGERS OF 'MAKING THINGS FIT' AS COMPLIANCES TO IMPOSITION FEARS OF LOSS OF LOVE...BEING AS 'EXPECTANCY' OR TRADITION IN RITUALS AND CORRIDORINGS OF ROLE/PERFORMANCES...

WHO IS FULLY PRESENT WITHIN...IN AS IS...TO INTEGRATE AND RELEASE 'ALL THAT IS NOT ONE'...

SHAME...
ALIENATION OF REALNESS...
PARTITIONINGS OF LIFE...SPLITTING OFF FROM PRESENCE BECOMES EXHAUSTION AS ONE RIDES VANITY FEAR ECHOES AND MEMORY DEFENSES-THAT RECURRENCE OR 'ONE WILL BE CAUGHT OFF GUARD OR CAUGHT IN THE ACT , AGAIN...INTERNAL VIOLENCE SUSTAINED TO BARBI-CAN FORTRESS AGAINST THREATS OF EXPOSURE OF IDENTITY FOR HAVING DONE 'GUILTINESS' WHERE ONE IS NOT ABLE TO ACCEPT ONESELF...
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FOR THE PLAYERS OF 'POWER' MAY SUCCEED IN THE GAMES AND ROLES OF WORLD PERFORMANCE AS POWER IS GREATER THAN LOVE...BUT THOSE WHO REALLY KNOW THESE PLAYERS SEE INTO THE REALNESS OF THE TROUBLES THEY HIDE...

FOR THE DRIVES OF BARBI-CAN SHAME FORTRESSINGS SUSTAIN THE IMPRESSIONS IN THE MANIPULATIONS AND MANEUVERINGS YET THE INSIGHTS OF 'GIVE AND TAKE' IN LOVE REVEALS WHAT IS THE 'DARK MATTER' BEYOND THE SPARKLINGS OF THE POINTS OF LIGHT IN THE MERIDIAN STREAMINGS...

THE CHALLENGES AND CONFRONTATIONS OF 'OTHER' WHO SEES INTO ONE'S REAL IS VULNERABILITY AS ONE MAY HOLD FAST TO IMAGE-MAKING INSTEAD OF TRUINGS IN URGENCY AND THE ABILITY TO LOVE...

SHADOWS IN DARK MATTER BEYOND POINTS OF LIGHT MERIDIAN TENDENCY PATTERNS

STATES OF HIGH EMOTIONAL REACTIVITY...
NUMBNESS AND FEAR FLIGHT...VANITY FEARS...
DESIRE BLOCKED BY MISTRUST AS CHARGED REACTIONS OF DUALITY IN KA STATES OF INTERACTIONS...A LACK OF OR A SENSE OF NOT GOOD ENOUGH BECOMES BARBI-CAN DEFENSES THAT WALL AWAY REALNESS...ANGST AND DISPLAY BECOME HYPERVIGILANCE TERRITORIAL ALARMS OF PROTECTION YET IT IS WHAT IS WALLED AWAY AND BLOCKED, DENIED AND CONSTRAINED...A FORM OF ACOUSTICAL SOUND DEADNESS OR DEAD CERTAINTY AS MORE AND MORE IS FORTRESSED TO BE IN THE ECHO OF A FAMILIAR WELL-RECOGNIZED STREAM OF INFORMATIONAL SIGNALS...
THUS TRAUMAS AND FEAR OF RECURRENCE LIMIT ACCESS TO KNOWING...TO ALIVENESS AND THE POTENTIAL OF THE WOMAN SEXUAL SATISFACTION...THE BEING 'FILLED' WITH CREATIVE/REPRODUCTIVE RESONANCE OF EROS ENERGIES FUELS HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION AND POWER 'WANTING TO BE WANTED' ...INSTEAD OF TRUTH OF URGENCY VITALITY...TRUTH OF SUCK PLEASURE...

MANNEQUIN BEING STATES OF BARBI-CAN FORTRESS MODELS

DEEP BOY/GIRL STRATEGY OF EMULATION DESIRE IN BUY THIS AND BECOME THIS IN MANUFACTURED SELF OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT AS ALIENATION OF REAL AUTHENTICITY...

DIFFERENCES OF AUTHENTICITY IN PLAY OR REAL DANGER IN COURTING AND ENCOUNTER...FOR LEARNING GROWTH IS NOT BEING SOMEONE/SOMETHING ELSE ...IT IS TRANSFORMING ESSENTIALS OF LETTING GO OUT OF BETRAYALS OF DENIAL, SUPPRESSION AND THE IMBALANCES OF POWER GREATER THAN LOVE THAT IS 'WANTING TO BE WANTED'...

TO ACCESS THE 'ACTUAL SOUND'...BEYOND THE PADDED, INSULATED, FORTRESSED AND SHAME SKEWED OF THE DISTORTIONS OF HUNGER AND IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT

WALL RESONANCE...

SOUNDS OF FILTERED AND MUFFLED...

SHANGHAI AND LADY DAY
AWARENESS...

TO REMOVE THE VANITY VEILS AND COMPRESSION CONSTRICTIONS OF SHAME, GUILT FORTRESSINGS...TO SEE INTO ONE AS GLASS ...AS THIN SKINNED...AS ILLUMINATION OF HEART CHEST NEON STREAMS OF THE BODY ELECTRIC...

NEW LAYERS AND WHAT BECOMES SURFACES OF PRESZENCE,,,

GREAT NATURES AND GREAT SEXUALITY...BETTER OFF WITHOUT YOU LIMBO...2 MINUTE ESSAY

SENSAMORA...GODDESS OF ACOUSTICAL RESONANCE...3 MINUTE PHOTO EROS ESSAY

MEMORY IN FIBROUS DARKNESS...SENSES IN 'DEAD CERTAIN' VS. ALIVENESS

TO BE IN THE BODY ELECTRIC...THE DEEP SEATED AND DEEPLY ROOTED...THE ZONED IN PATTERNINGS OF POINTS OF LIGHT STREAM CORRIDORS OF INTENSITY-DENSITY...THE TOO MUCH OF A GOOD THING INERTIA OF LEVERAGE-ROBBING PETER TO PAY PAUL...

DARK MATTER AROUND STARS...ONLY 1% SEEN AS POINTS OF LIGHT AS 99% IS THE UNSEEN/UNKNOWN

APPREHENSION, ANGST, TERROR...SPOTLIGHT ROLES AND DREAMS...

AGGRESSIVE FORTRESSINGS IN ENERGY CONTROLLINGS...NOT MUCH ROOM FOR LOVE AS SENSES OF POWERLESSNESS COMPEL SELFISHNESS IN STATES OF CONTROL...POWER IN WANTING TO BE WANTED AS MEANS OF GETTING CERTAINTY IN DESIRE WITHOUT THE POTENCY OF BEING ABLE TO LOVE.,.,

TO SEE SELF-DEFEATING AND LIMITING BEHAVIORS WITHIN A VERY CONSTICTED VISION...IDENTITY...ALIVENESS...










BRAIN STORM CREATIVITY AS OPPORTUNITY BEYOND STORM IN THE BRAIN OVERLOADS AND CONFUSIONS...





TO MANAGE JUXTAPOSITIONS OF LETTING GO OF EXCESSES AND NON ESSENTIALS...





THE MEMORY OF THE OVERWHELMING FRIGHT AND FEAR EVENT[S] WORKS AS 'BUTTONS' THAT TRIGGER VIGILANCE, ALARMS AND ADRENALINES...

SYMPTOMS OUT OF THE HIDDEN AND BODILY REACTIVITY THAT IS DEEP-SEATED IN SHINX SPHINCTERS OF PSYCHE CIRCUITRY...THE BODY ELECTRIC IN SIN AND SYNAPTIC NEUROBIOLOGICAL...

SUFFERING THAT SERVES THE BELIEF-BEHAVIOR CLOSED CIRCLE OF EROS-CREATIVE-SACRED SPACE AND SUFFERING THAT IS PROCESS OF TRANSFORMATION OUT OF THE TRAPPED LIFE INERTIA THAT FASCINATES AND DEADENS AS ONE IS STUCK WATCHING AND DANCING IN NARCISSISM WITH THE INNER SHADOWS ON THE WALLS AND BARRIERS OF THE BARBI-CAN FORTRESS...

FOR THE FORTRESS SERVES THE NECESSITY TO MASTER THE EARLY HARM AND MAKE SURE IT WILL NOT REOCCUR OR IF IT DOES IT WILL NOT CAUSE THE SAME DEGREE OF DAMAGE...SO THE OTHER BECOMES THE MEDIUM...THE MEANS OF MAINTENANCE AND PREVENTION OF PAST RECURRENCE WHILE ONE TOLERATES THE VIOLENCE OF TODAY...

IT IS POWER SEEKING IN WANTING TO BE WANTED AS GROWTH AND REPAIR IN ADRENALS AND HORMONES ARE LIMITED BECAUSE THE EMERGENCY OF FLIGHT/FIGHT OF YESTERDAY CONTINUES ...THUS INTENSITY-DENSITY RELIEF-RELEASE IN ZONINGS FULFILLS IMMEDIACY OF LETTING OFF STEAM WITHOUT ALTERATION OF UNLYING ISSUES...


















DYNAMISM OF CO-DEPENDENCY IN ENABLINGS...

HOSTILITY IN SEEING INTO AND FEARS IN UNDERMININGS AND SABOTAGE...BUTTONS TO PUSH IN INVALIDATION OF DREAMINGS AND DELUSIONS...PUNCTURES OF FALSE INFLATIONS...

A DUALITY OF DEALINGS...A PSYCHE FOURSOME OF ROMANCE HUNGERS OF THE GHOSTS OF APPETITE AND UNMET NEEDS..................SOME NEEDS SERVICED YET THE FALSENESS TRIBUTE COLLAPSES UNDER THE OPPRESSIVENESS OF DENIALS AND MISDIRECTIONS...

MASTERY OVER A HARMFUL PAST MAY BE SUCCESSFUL AS ONE GROWS OUT OF THE EQUITY OF A NARCISSISTIC SELF ABSORBED RELATION...NEEDS AND 'INNER NECESSITY' ALTERING AS A FUNCTION OF WHAT HAS BEEN LEARNED-THE OTHER FORCED INTO THE POSITION OF BEING THE PSYCHE DRAMA OF INCOMPLETION[THE EARLY TRIANGULATION OF PARENT OR PARENTS ETC]...

WORKING THROUGH...BREATHING THROUGH HELPLESSNESS AND RECURRENCE...

IT IS PEEK-A-BOO TIME...IT IS HENSEL AND GRETEL TIME OF HOLDING ON AND LETTING GO...WAYS OF FINDING ONES WAY THROUGH THE REALM OF APPETITES---GINGER BREAD AND WITCHES IN THE OVEN COOKIES TIME...

TO FACE 'REFUSALS TO REALIZE' IN SHUTTING DOWN WITHDRAWALS...ARRESTED DEVELOPMENT CORRIDORED INTO ROLE PERFORMANCE 'IDEA VERSIONS OF IDENTITY...

THE INNER GNAWINGS OF SHAME-POTENTIAL EXPOSURE...BEING UNVEILED AND UNMASKED...INADEQUACY BECOMING 'SUPPORT' AND 'PROPPED-UP' BEHAVIORS OF TAKING CARE THAT NO ONE OUTSIDE THE FAMILY INNER CIRCLE SEES THE TRUTH...

IT IS EVERYDAY EXCESSES IN FAMILY OVERLOADS AND SEXUALITY BOUNDARY OVERLAPS THAT FEEDS LOYALTY AND 'COMMONALITY' EVEN AS IT SUFFOCATES PERSONAL GROWTH AND FREEDOM'...

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ALL IS VANITY FEAR IN.... 'NEVER INTERRUPT YOUR ENEMY WHEN HE IS MAKING A MISTAKE'-NAPOLEON

THE WAR OF SEXUALITY WITHIN...AND IN STRUGGLES OF POWER GREATER THAN LOVE...LOCATION, LOCATION, LOCATION AND CONTROL, CONTROL, CONTROL...

THE BARBI-CAN FORTRESSINGS OF MEDIATION POWER IN MIMESIS IMITATION IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT...

FOR SEEING INTO TROUBLES IS KNOWING THE 'DARK MATTER' THAT IS NOT IN ENERGY BODY ELECTRIC POINTS OF LIGHT CURRENTS/ CORRIDORINGS/ MERIDIAN STREAMINGS...THE AROUSAL ACTIVATIONS OF HYSTERIA SENSUALIZATION IN 'WANTINGS TO BE WANTED' POWER GREATER THAN TRUTH OF URGENCY LOVE GENERATIVENESS...

IT IS SEEING INTO MASKS AND VEILINGS THAT PRECLUDE REAL SEXUAL AWAKENINGS...IT IS SEEING INTO THE WALLINGS OF CONTROL THAT BLOCK, THWART AND DENY...HOLD AS 'TRAPPED LIFE' AND SUPPRESS SPONTANEITY AS FEAR OF REAL PLEASURE ALIVENESS THAT WOULD REDEFINE OUT OF AN INERTIA VERSION OF IDENTITY...

TO SEE EMOTIONAL AGGRESSIONS IN DIFFERENCES...FOR THE WALLINGS AND FACADES OF VEILS...THE MASKS OF SEEKING TO BE LOVED...THE WANTINGS OF SELF ABSORPTIONS AND ECHOIC IMMERSIONS...

THE GAP OF NARRATIVE VERSION OF SELF AND ACTIONS...FOR WHO IS 'AS IS' IN PRESZENCE AND WHO HOLDS TO A CONSTRUCTED-MANUFACTURED IDENTITY OF IMPRESSION MANAGEMENT...

COMPETITIONS OF GAMES OF POWER AND CONTROL...FAMILIARITY BREEDS CONTEMPT AS CONTEMPT BREWS IN FEARS OF ABANDONMENT AND ABANDON AS DESIRE FOR ESCAPE IN SEXUALITY IS INTENSITY-DENSITY GOAL WITHIN THE CLOSED CIRCULARITY OF SHADOWS MOVING ON INNER CAVE WALLINGS...

THE ENDANGERED SENSES ARE ALWAYS ACTIVE...WATCHING AND SEIZING MOMENTS TO EXPRESS OR CONTROL AND CONTAIN...THE FEAR SENSES ARE MAKING POWER EXCHANGES OF RECIPROCITY FOR SAFENESS AND COMFORT WITHOUT CHANGING THE FOUNDATION THAT WAS BUILT IN A LACK OF CONFIDENCE, SELF ESTEEM...

CONSEQUENCES ARE NOT EVEN IN THE DIALOGUE...


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